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Man. I hate being unhappy. Unhappiness sucks. It's totally overrated. At least in tv shows, they have great shots of the character as they go through the throes of whatever the hell is bothering them. In real life we're either alone or with other people who don't notice how crappy you feel. (((I'm not really upset now, but this is how I've been feeling for the past couple of months.)))
I used to be depressed in elementary school. (Bad family situation + first time interacting with strangers + being kinda poor + unrelenting classmates = bad times) That lasted until high school where I was more unhappy than depressed because I had hope for the future. Hope of building a better tomorrow where I wouldn't have to take shit from anyone. Then I was happy the first month or so in college because I was trying new things and "reinventing myself". However, the financial aspect started to wear away from my hopefulness and I didn't have anyone to turn to for advice. I started to isolate myself from friends who could help.
That's when the light of hope had been extinguished, and I felt the effects of it for two years After that, I just needed to do something, so I got a job. The job got a repetitive and people have been getting on my nerves, so I decided that it was time for me to get up and do something crazy.
I'm going to school for computer programming right now with the hopes of getting involved with the gaming industry. I'm playing games and talking to people again. Things have become more enjoyable and a little more fulfilling. Sometimes it feels like I'm in a rut. When those days come, I try to teach myself a little about programming (it's like having a key to a world hidden away from a lot of people), and I try to learn a new language. ((Right now Japanese is kicking my ass. In a kinky S&M way.))
Right now I'm happy and playing several games. I congratulate myself whenever I figure what the hell to do because when I first left the vault, I didn't know how to make money. It was truly harsh in the wasteland.
LBP is starting to get a little tough, but it's fun! I haven't begun playing with the level editor, yet, because I want to finish the single player game first. (I'm also a collection whore. I love playing levels over again to try for a 100% completion.)
Persona 3 rules my life now. I've never been so happy to grind in my life. ((Other than my +140 hours playing Pokemon Diamond)) I think it's the fact that in order to summon one's Persona, the characters have to shoot themselves in the head with a special "evoker" that looks like a gun. You can never get tired of seeing a character shoot themselves in the head. I'm nearing the 10 hour mark, and I just began playing the game. Usually I play games for an hour, but I've been playing this one for 5 hours at a time. Too bad that's the same amount of time that I sleep before I go to work. @_@ I don't see how I can squeeze everything within a day. Persona 4 will probably rule my life this New Year.
In sad news today, I can't find The World Ends With You. Even sadder is the fact that I'm willing to buy the game again... If you haven't used your DS in a while and want a game to make you max out your battery single sessions at a time, this is your game. The ending was well done and it has replay value. Seriously! When you beat the game, you can play an alternative universe set in Shibuya with the same characters. Some of the dialogue made me laugh out loud on a crowded subway train. The soundtrack is great, and I need to find where I could download it or buy the soundtrack. Square better keep making new IPs with other developers because this was great.
I used to be depressed in elementary school. (Bad family situation + first time interacting with strangers + being kinda poor + unrelenting classmates = bad times) That lasted until high school where I was more unhappy than depressed because I had hope for the future. Hope of building a better tomorrow where I wouldn't have to take shit from anyone. Then I was happy the first month or so in college because I was trying new things and "reinventing myself". However, the financial aspect started to wear away from my hopefulness and I didn't have anyone to turn to for advice. I started to isolate myself from friends who could help.
That's when the light of hope had been extinguished, and I felt the effects of it for two years After that, I just needed to do something, so I got a job. The job got a repetitive and people have been getting on my nerves, so I decided that it was time for me to get up and do something crazy.
I'm going to school for computer programming right now with the hopes of getting involved with the gaming industry. I'm playing games and talking to people again. Things have become more enjoyable and a little more fulfilling. Sometimes it feels like I'm in a rut. When those days come, I try to teach myself a little about programming (it's like having a key to a world hidden away from a lot of people), and I try to learn a new language. ((Right now Japanese is kicking my ass. In a kinky S&M way.))
Right now I'm happy and playing several games. I congratulate myself whenever I figure what the hell to do because when I first left the vault, I didn't know how to make money. It was truly harsh in the wasteland.
LBP is starting to get a little tough, but it's fun! I haven't begun playing with the level editor, yet, because I want to finish the single player game first. (I'm also a collection whore. I love playing levels over again to try for a 100% completion.)
Persona 3 rules my life now. I've never been so happy to grind in my life. ((Other than my +140 hours playing Pokemon Diamond)) I think it's the fact that in order to summon one's Persona, the characters have to shoot themselves in the head with a special "evoker" that looks like a gun. You can never get tired of seeing a character shoot themselves in the head. I'm nearing the 10 hour mark, and I just began playing the game. Usually I play games for an hour, but I've been playing this one for 5 hours at a time. Too bad that's the same amount of time that I sleep before I go to work. @_@ I don't see how I can squeeze everything within a day. Persona 4 will probably rule my life this New Year.
In sad news today, I can't find The World Ends With You. Even sadder is the fact that I'm willing to buy the game again... If you haven't used your DS in a while and want a game to make you max out your battery single sessions at a time, this is your game. The ending was well done and it has replay value. Seriously! When you beat the game, you can play an alternative universe set in Shibuya with the same characters. Some of the dialogue made me laugh out loud on a crowded subway train. The soundtrack is great, and I need to find where I could download it or buy the soundtrack. Square better keep making new IPs with other developers because this was great.
