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So I have tummy fat that's being stubborn and my butt is flabby at the moment. For the past couple of weeks, I have become more active. Things like getting on an elliptical and just general exercise that I used to do.

Then a family member saw me eating some cheese and crackers. And ranted to me about how I'm just going to let myself get fat and how increasing my exercise isn't going to work. Which is true. But it wasn't like I was going to eat all of it in five minutes then eat some more. The AC isn't on until May, but it's humid hot. When it's humid hot I just want something light and snacky to eat with water until dinner time.

I didn't say all that, but the little rage bunny inside of myself was getting angry. I never act out or say anything back to retaliate (lost cause). It's just annoying and condescending.

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Sunday, my older brother D.B picked my mother, grandmother and took us over to his new house in Maryland. He and his wife, C, have a lovely home!

When we got there, my sister, T, and my niece, AR, were still cooking food. C fixed a saltfish coleslaw like dish, and it was delicious. I should try Carribean food more often. (C is from Grenada.) T's daughter, Tt, and AR's boyfriend were down in the huge basement watching The Simple Life. The cookout was really a high school graduation party for T's son, CC, and a birthday party for my aunt D's son A.

While I was sitting at a table with my mom and her former in-laws. She told the story of how she nearly killed me as an infant. I was three months old, and she fell asleep with me on her chest on the couch. In her sleep, she thought the weight on her chest was some dude laying up on her expecting to get some. When she was about to punch me to the ground, something told her to open her eyes. When she saw it was me sleeping on her chest, she felt weak and very guilty. She said she told that story to everyone that could listen that week because of her guilt. I'm glad that she opened her eyes because I may have been killed, paralyzed, or injured in someway.

For the most part, I had a lot of fun even though I didn't really mingle with a lot of people. Medium sized parties aren't really my forte. Really. I tend to get really anxious in a medium sized group than in a large group because in a large group it's easier for me to disappear and to mingle with more people. I could've kept a lot of conversations going if I hadn't kept my answers very short. Hopefully, I'd be able to manage for JR and V's birthday party. It's happening in about a month, and I hope to have a job by then. I want to buy a cellphone, so when the new people I'd meet ask to exchange numbers, I don't have to get anxioius about not having a cell that takes long distance. (Does anyone have a good cell phone plan out there?) General anxiety sucks balls. Big, nasty sweaty balls. I'd probably post more indepth tomorrow about this.
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Apparently, Toonami is showing Miyazaki movies this month from seven to ten o'clock on Saturdays. How come they didn't show more commercials about it? I know that I don't watch Cartoon Network during the day, so this maybe the factor. I was angry to catch the last twenty minutes of Spirited Away last week. Princess Mononoke was on earlier. Turner Classic Movies had the same theme last January. I guess since both stations are owned by Ted Turner, they are having the same promotions. I wonder if this has to do with another Miyazaki film coming out in the US.

My grandmother was in the hospital for a week for Bronchitis. She was supposed to get a cosmetic surgery procedure done to her eyelid because her eyelashes were turned inward and rubbing against her eye. Her eye looked horrible, but she didn't want the procedure. She came back today on her birthday. My aunt is going to be here for a week or five days. She always come up from Georgia to visit the week of my grandmother's birthday. 

My uncle lied about getting a liver transplant. Unfortunately, he wasn't even eligible to get on the list. 

Things are getting better though.


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